Fluffy, that's exactly how I feel right now. I'm stuck at 150 lbs in this awkward stage. My pants don't seem to fit right and my shirts all "look" too tight. I feel like wearing my sweatpants and a baggy shirt most of the time.
I highly doubt the chocolate and all the crap food I bought around my birthday is truly helping any of this.
I almost NEVER let any of this effect my self esteem. It actually takes a lot for me to get down on myself.
I haven't been to the gym in a little over 2 weeks now I think. First reason, or excuse, is because I kicked the head of a nail sticking out of a baseboard and took a little chunk out of my big toe on my right foot. Reason #2 is because 3 days ago I broke the middle toe on my left foot. It feels fine if it's in a shoe, but the second I start walking around barefoot, I feel the discomfort.
I hate how the second I get motivated for the gym, something happens. I've been trying to lay off the crap food since I can't go run it off. But, being laid up because of my clumsiness has made me want to just dive head-first into the box of Little Debbie's Oatmeal Pies... And the fact that the husband has officially started preparing for his deployment has me on edge.
We had a brief argument yesterday because he scheduled a dentist appointment too close to my OBGYN appointment. Usually, there would be no discussion or problem with this. I would just call up my doctor's office and cancel, no problem. The problem, I have had the appointment for a month now, and it would probably be that long before I could get another one. Still, no big deal right? Well, I'm totally freaked about having to have a second colposcopy. I had one back in 2005 after an abnormal pap. I know it will probably turn out to be nothing, but I can't help but think of how it may be something.
I really wish I could go work out though. It would definitely help take away some of the stress from everyday life.
Team Beachbody!
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maybe try running in the afternoon/at night in the neighborhood while W is still around to watch the kids. It's finally starting to get warm enough.
Yeah, I've thought about it. Even our apt complex has a treadmill. I would much rather just drive over to the gym than run in this neighborhood. Creepers.
I am so sorry cause you have been doing so good and you have been so happy about it. It always makes me sad when someone beats themselves up and hates the way they look. Just know that your foot and toe will heal. Try to do what you can, maybe even your wii fit or things around the house. You are beautiful no matter what just remember this will pass and you will be back to yourself in no time. Try not to stress to much over the deployment I got shingles when Kevin deployed.
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