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Friday, October 14, 2011

5 Question Friiiiidaaay

1. Do you prefer your ice cream in a bowl or in a cone?
~ Depends. Frozen yogurt, cone. Regular ice cream, bowl.

2. What three things do you love the smell of?
~ Rain! Pot roast cooking all day in the crock pot. Now this last one may sound a little weird, but diesel.

3. Gift cards or no? (In regards to gift giving...)
~ Yes! Especially for those who are REALLY hard to shop for. Or for people I know who prefer a certain store, but still unsure of what they would want.

4. What sports did you play in high school if any and do you still play them?
~ I wish I still played them. That's probably the one thing I truly miss about becoming an adult. I played volleyball, basketball, wrestling, and softball. I was definitely a jock.

5. Were you in band in high school? What instrument did you play?
~ Nope. My clarinet playing days ended before I started middle school. You ever hear a young marching band play from an elementary school, and the kid who constantly has the squeaky reed.. Yep! That was me!

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Tuesday, October 11, 2011

My head is spinning...

I must be crazy. At least that's what my family would think. My mother's side anyway. My grandma, my mom, myself, we are mostly the only children to our parents. I have a half-sister. But my mom and grandma had no siblings at all. I still consider myself an only child because my sister is 19 years older than me. So, I definitely did things a little differently by having 2 kids of my own, with the same father.

So, back to the crazy talk. I am baby crazy, I've been in denial about not being baby crazy. But I'm totally, completely, utterly baby crazy. You may say I'm crazy even.. I mean, I'll be the first to admit, my girls are a handful! But dang, I would love to bring another life into this world. I even told the husband I was done! We have 2, one for each parent, one for each arm, one for each seat in the backseat. Plenty of people manage 3/4 kids just fine, I need to make sure I can too. Emotionally, financially, physically.

My pregnancies haven't exactly been the easiest. They haven't told me I won't be able to have kids again, but the cervical cancer scare last year made me think I never would want kids again. Emotionally, my first pregnancy was hard. She was born 5 days after my dad died and the recovery was rough! Pretty sure I had a little post-partum with her as well. Financially, two kids are pretty easy to manage. I still want to be able to give my kids the kind of life I had. I doubt I would have done half the cool stuff I did if I had siblings. Honestly, a 3 week trip in France was stressful enough with just my mother and grandmother. I couldn't imagine what it would have been like if I had siblings. Either we wouldn't have gone with mom and grandma, or it would have been way more stressful.

I don't know if I'm being totally irrational here by wanting another/more, or if it is rational. I don't know if I'd be feeling selfish by not wanting more. I know the husband isn't totally opposed to the fact, since he's said we should talk about it in a year/few years.

Maybe I should just let this go and just be genuinely happy for my friends instead of trying to live vicariously through their pregnancies or pining for my another of my own.

Monday, October 10, 2011

I'm Me

Husband left Friday afternoon to spend 9 days in the wilderness of Utah. Yes, it's hunting season. My stress level seemed to plummet drastically come Saturday morning. I don't know what it is.. maybe it's the fact that the kids are MUCH easier to cook for than he is. The first day is usually hard, but even their behavior seems to change when they know daddy isn't going to be home right away. I don't know if they just get so anxious during the day when they know he's coming home or on his way home from work, but their behavior is much different.

Today is Monday, Shannon is currently staying home from school thanks to her 102 degree fever yesterday. It was still pretty low grade this morning, but still remained a fever. I really wanted to tackle a few things this week while he is away. Honestly it's just easier that way, the girls pretty much entertain themselves or each other while I fold, scrub, whatever away.

I hate when people say I'm my husband's mother or how I'm not standing my ground. Here's a little bit of history.. The day we signed the marriage certificate, we talked about what each one of us will contribute to this marriage, to the home, to each other, you get the point. Yes, it went according to plan in the beginning, but then life happens. Both being in the military, and in training at the time, we had to stay on top of our language classes. I got pregnant, morning sickness kicked in, cleaning, eating, cooking, it all seemed to make me sick. Anyway, after baby came, I had double duty on top of working, that's when I started getting overwhelmed. After I got out of the military, I pretty much took on everything. It wasn't that I "became my husband's mother." I wanted things done, and I wanted them done a specific way. I'm not going to lie, I'm a control freak and I have some OCD-like quirks.

My husband isn't necessarily lazy, he just doesn't seem to take the initiative. If I want something done, I have to ask him. I can understand this, because I have (more than once) seen him take the initiative, then I snapped at him or did something to discourage him from wanting to ever try that again. Yes, I have brought this upon myself, I know this. I would like to believe I've gotten better at letting others do things for me once in a while, and believe it or not, I even ask for help once in a while. I've come to learn that it is OKAY to ask for help once in a while, I call it my "Supermom" complex.

So, to my friend, who I know will probably never read this.. I know you weren't trying to judge me. You were only expressing the observation(s). But it has been eating at me for the last 2 days. You said you weren't interested in the history of it, just wanted to know how I intended on changing it. Either way, it still was weighing heavily on my mind. Thank you for offering to help me with whatever I needed, but frankly, I need to do this on my own. I got in over my head, years ago, and I've been digging myself out, little by little, ever since.

I'm not a hardcore hoarder, but I am a hoarder. Which doesn't make the tasks of everyday life very easy. I have ADD, which sometimes makes it hard to focus on those everyday tasks, and even the larger tasks linked to the hoarding. For instance, going through all of my dad's crap still seems overwhelming to this day. Being a control freak doesn't help much either. If other people just dive in and start "messing with my stuff" it sends my anxiety through the roof. I don't know what you're going to do with it or where you're going to put it.. And my wonderful husband has to deal with this everyday of his life. It's not easy living with me, I know this. But lately he knows I've been trying my best, and I'm getting better. So, next time whether it's a judgment, or just an observation, maybe you should try hearing me out. It's still criticism and it still drives me nuts.

Friday, September 23, 2011


1. Dream job... realistic and completely unrealistic.
~ Not sure what I would call it, but I just want a suitcase, a journal, and a camera. I want to travel all over the world. I want to take as many pictures as possible, and I want to write about my adventures.

2. Do you fart in front of your significant other?
~ Believe me when I say I do try to hold it in. But, you do what ya gotta do...

3. What's the furthest you've ever traveled from home? How far and where was it?
~ France. We flew out of San Francisco landed in Paris, then flew to another town in southern France.

4. How do you celebrate birthday for your kids? Family only or friends?
~ We usually have a small get together with mostly family, maybe some friends. Cake is definitely a must. I usually either order a pizza or cook their favorite foods.

5. Fave thing about fall?
~ Sweaters. Sweaters and boots. I love Fall. It's beginning to become my most favorite season of all.

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Wednesday, September 21, 2011

Good Times!

I'm excited. Life is good. My mom is halfway here, she'll be here tomorrow!

School is still going well for Shannon. Since the stomach issues I had are pretty much gone, I've been able to reclaim my grip on this whole housewife thing. I've been cooking some pretty fantastic meals! I made a chicken cajun pasta from The Pioneer Woman. Tonight I made biscuits and gravy, the best ones I've made yet.

The Mr. and I are planning a trip next year, without the children! Our good friend Ally is getting married Nov 2012 in Oahu and we are going to try our damnedest to be there for her! So far, we've planned to drop the kids off at my moms, then drive to Travis AFB and catch a hop into Hawaii. That's as far as we've gotten so far haha. I'm hoping to be able to see our friends the Catoes and the Speeds while we are down there.

Today I was named as the Head Room Mother in Shannon's class. No big responsibility, I just have to make sure the other Room Mothers are active in their parts during each holiday celebration.

Needless to say, I doubt I will get much sleep tonight. I can't wait to see my mom! And this is a total surprise to the kids, which is even better!

Wednesday, September 14, 2011

What's going on!

Holy cow! It's been almost a month since I wrote last. I hate when I do this.. Anyway, Shannon started Kindergarten on the 29th. She is quite excited to be in school again and she's taking it all in like a sponge. She is doing great! I haven't heard any real negative reports from her teacher. She seems to be having the same hiccups as all the other kids in her class. The first week was the hardest, not for me, not for Shannon, but for Erin! She didn't understand why she couldn't go to school with Shannon. Poor kid.

Her first weekend after school started, she got the stomach bug that was going around and threw up. Luckily it only lasted her a day. Myself on the other hand.. It plagued me for nearly 3 days. After I was already having stomach issues for about 4 days, those 3 days were like hell! I'm so glad to finally feel like a normal human being again.

I'm so so so excited for Fall! The girls have so many cute clothes and I can't wait to wear my sweaters. I never used to be excited for Fall. Really, this is like the first year I've ever looked forward to the season. I'm not a fan of snow, but I can embrace the cold. Here's to hoping for a mellow Utah Winter..

Saturday, August 20, 2011

5QF on a Saturday..

1. Do you close the bathroom door when you are home alone?
~ Generally, no. Even if I do, I don't normally lock it, the girls just walk right in! So really, there's no point...

2. You have to walk around with a word on your forehead. That word describes you. One word. What is it?
~ Me. It's more me than any other word I know. "Me" is the only thing I know how to be, and I do it well.

3. What store do you refuse to shop at and why?
~ Abercrombie & Fitch. Totally NOT my style and everything is usually 2 sizes too small for me.

4. If you participated in arranged marriages for your children, who would you choose for your children?
~ No idea. I know I've joked with some people and asked them to save their sons for my daughters.. But yeah, not even sure how to answer this..

5. If you could pick how and when you would die, would you?
~ Don't care.. I just want to live long enough to see both of my girls become who they are going to become. I want to be around long enough to help them through their toughest times. I want to go through that empty nest stage with my husband. I want to meet grandchildren and great-grandchildren.
I would like to die peacefully. I don't want my children wondering what happened to me. I don't want to go in anyway that would be painful for them like it was for me when my father died.

Tuesday, August 16, 2011

Feeling the need to vent..

Being a military, now Army, wife, I can't help but sometimes feel like I'm living in the shadows of my husband. Don't get me wrong, I love him, and I love our life, but sometimes I just feel less than adequate. Now let me explain before I start being misunderstood..

Part of me wants a part time job or SOMETHING outside of the home. When we were living on base I never felt this way. I always felt like I was living in a community of people just like myself. Not living on base is MUCH different, and to be honest, I don't like it all that well. Anyway, in order to have a part time job, we would need a second car and extra finances to keep the 2 year old in day care while the 5 year old is in school, and she's only going to be in school 3 hours a day. So, that's out of the question! Option number 2, which we've tried off and on a few times, I go to work after he gets home or on the weekends. This left us with almost no time with each other, and he didn't like it much. Especially during the week.

It just sucks because I look at some of these military wives who seem to do it all. I honestly think part of it is because I've lost part of who I was and I'm having a hard time getting "me" back. I felt so empowered last year while he was deployed. My house was perfect, kids were happy and healthy, I was working out like 2 times a day (once a day at the gym). So, call me horrible, but I'm kind of looking forward to the husband leaving for Basic Training so I can get that back for a few weeks.

Monday, August 15, 2011

I don't know..

I really dislike this time of year. Every August I seem to get into a funk. Last year was the worst yet, and I'm hoping I can kick it soon. Part of it is seeing my friend's going back to school or doing all these fantastic things every August, and I still can't help but feel less than mediocre. When am I going to quit feeling like I have something to prove to myself or someone else?!?

Anyway, going to bed. Here's to hoping for a better tomorrow.

Sunday, August 14, 2011

Million Miles Away

So many things are going through my mind. Not even sure where to even start.

Today would have been my dad's 63rd birthday. 2005 was the last year I got to actually tell him "happy birthday." To me it seems so silly how much I miss him on his birthday. I guess I took the 18 years for granted when I could actually tell him. This has me down in the dumps and quite antisocial today.

Antisocial, the way I've been behaving lately... I could quite pleasantly just stay home and sleep all day everyday. Even the girls have taken to laying on the couch with me in the mornings, I'm gonna miss these snuggles someday. Along with feeling antisocial, I have felt like a crappy, crappy friend. I haven't called anyone back. I haven't wanted to give any advice when asked. I suppose I just haven't really given a rip about anyone's problems but my own. For once I care more about my own crap than anyone else's. Not a bad thing I suppose, but it has left me feeling quite cynical lately.

I need to get with the program though. My kids and husband need me functioning.

Thursday, August 11, 2011

I must still be in some denial..

18 days. 18 days and my little, blonde girl starts Kindergarten! She's 5 and I am still in shock. I see her becoming the big girl, and part of me still wants the little girl back. Before she started her ADHD fits and tantrums and just general change in behavior.. But we're working on it. I know my relationship with the young one is much different from my relationship with her, and I need to work on that too.

I don't think it helped any that I had blondie when I was barely 19, I was 22 with #2. I was 19, in the military, and selfish. I still don't know if I can call myself a "teen" parent. Sure, I was 18 when I got pregnant, but I was also married and had a full-time job, a career. Well, it was supposed to be, but I don't really regret that decision. Still, it was much easier the second time around, especially considering I am a stay at home mom now.

So what I wanna know, and yes, it is a rhetorical question.. When the hell is this going to start getting easier?! I'd TOTALLY hire a maid in a heartbeat if we could afford it. Not a full-time one either, someone to come like once or twice a week to tackle all the real hard crap that frankly, I really don't want to do. A cook would be nice too, and just during the summertime.

I HATE cooking in the summertime. It's too hot and I don't want to actually eat anything that needs to be prepared.. I'm all for Jamba Juice dinners and salad. Is it realistic? No.. Is it pricey? Yessss. No fair.

Wow, this has totally started turning into a random post! Anyway, what I'm getting at.. on the 29th, she starts Kindergarten. I am losing sleep over this, because I'm not sure how it's going to go for her. I want her to do well, I want her to succeed, and most of all, I want her to enjoy school. *Putting on my cape* I'm ready to do WHATEVER I need to do for my child. If I have to medicate her, I will. If I have to meet weekly, monthly, whenever with her teacher to see her progress, I will do so! I love my baby, and I don't want to be one of the pushy, overbearing mothers. I just want to see her succeed and enjoy it as she goes.

Sunday, August 7, 2011

I'm not going to lie. I'm so tired of just writing about updates and the 5 question Fridays..

I told the husband I was lacking the creativity I had in high school. I just can't seem to write how I used to. Maybe I need some inspiration or something to happen. I'm reading again, hoping it will spark something, but nothing.. so far. I've been reading other people's blogs to try to get an idea, but then I hate feeling like I'm just "copying" someone else. Argh. Writer's block sucks =o/

Tuesday, August 2, 2011

Updates and recent happenings

So husband enlisted on Thursday! Yay, quite excited, especially after waiting nearly 3 months. Right now we are just playing the waiting game. Waiting for orders, can't do much else until they cut him orders. For now, he's still working the civilian job and we still have benefits through them.

Shannon starts Kindergarten in less than 4 weeks now. I can hardly believe it. The last 5 years have seemed to fly by. She has her backpack, lunchbox, and a brand new outfit. Almost ready to go. Erin is still growing like a weed and follows her sister's every move.

I'm in a happy place right now. Life is good. Husband and I are good, healthy and chugging right along. I'd like to think I'm getting better with the housework and cooking, he tells me I am anyway, so that has to count for something. I've just been so flippin' tired lately. I know it's due to poor diet or messed up sleep schedule. I need to have my annual physical done anyway and I'm thinking of having them re-check my thyroid.

But like I said, life is good! My honey doesn't go to Basic until January. And they've moved it from South Carolina to Missouri. So it looks like the girls and I will be doing a road trip to Missouri in April! Anyway, that's all for now. Gotta finish my to do list and go to bed!

Monday, July 18, 2011

So doing handstands right now!

Finally! After two and a half months of waiting, it's finally over! He enlists in the Utah Army National Guard on Wednesday! The word came through today.

I felt so bad when he called. I was in the middle of having a meltdown with Shannon. He told me, and I didn't seem as excited as I should have been. As soon as he told me about it, he broke the news that he's working a few extra hours tonight. Poor guy, because then I just started crying lol. Anyway! More to come Wednesday!

Friday, July 15, 2011

5QF 7/15/11

1. If you knew your best friend's spouse was cheating on her or him, would you tell?
~ No. I do not like being in the middle of things at all. Call me horrible, but eventually the truth would come out. If I knew and the spouse knew that I knew, I would have a serious talk with them. Just like it isn't up to me to judge, it isn't up to me to spill the beans on the situation.

2. Soda in a can or a bottle?
~ Definitely a bottle. Preferably a glass one.

3. What do you wash first, hair or body?
~ Hair. I use shampoo as soon as my hair is wet enough. Then I usually was the rest of me or shave while the conditioner's in.

4. What advice would you give to any new mama?
~ Do not come home from the hospital expecting to do EVERYTHING in the exact routine you had prior to baby. Sleep when baby sleeps. It's okay to be on baby's schedule, especially if you're a stay at home mom. Oh! And learn to take Basic Training speed showers.

5. What is your best hangover remedy?
~ I don't drink any more, yay for me.. but I have had to find this remedy for the husband and brother-in-law more than once.... a Beto's mixed breakfast burrito (for the grease) and a Caramel Macchiato (sp?) from Starbucks. I still get the burrito, with sour cream, for me though! Haha

Monday, July 11, 2011

First Usana concert of the year

The Kenny Chesney concert was awesome! I went by myself, which I did not mind! Got there early so I could see both opening acts and do a little people watching.

Uncle Kracker played first, he performed all my favorite songs, Drift Away, Follow Me, Smile. It was awesome. Billy Currington played after him and I didn't really get a chance to see much of his performance, because I had to battle through the ATM line to get money for food. It was Costa Vida and SO worth it!

Kenny really was one of the best performers I've seen as of yet. The only thing that sucked were the random drunk people walking or staggering by. So noisy and I've never had so much beer spilled on me at one concert before. Aside from that, it was fun. Turns out, a few of the people I ended up sitting next to live in the same apartments as me and I actually have a mutual friend with some of them. Such a small world!

Friday, July 8, 2011

Fiiiiiiive Question Friiiiiddaaayyy

1. Do you think cursive writing is overrated? (Schools in Indiana have now voted to take teaching writing cursive out of their curriculum)
~ Not at all! I still write in cursive. I actually prefer cursive over most printing any day. I remember in school when all papers had to be done in cursive, not typed on a computer...

2. Do you still use a pocket calendar or notepad or do you keep your info on your smart phone?
~ Yes! I am a firm believe that technology can fail when you need it most. I still do budgets on paper. I still like writing checks even.. So yes, I have stuff written down and in my phone.

3. What 3 things would you save if your house was burning down? (Family & pets are already safe)
~ Filing box, picture box, and my stuffed animal Fritz. My mom's house actually did burn down, and she had nothing with her. No shoes on even, they were by the front door where the fire started. She ran out and didn't even have a bra on. I'd like to think I could run out with that stuff, but ya never know!

4. Country mouse or city mouse, err person?
~City. I do like some of the nice things about the city.. being minutes away from the grocery store or other nice amenities. But for the most part, I'm a recluse.

5. If you could pick ANY reality show to go on, which would you pick?
Real Housewives. I don't think I'd qualify though, we aren't filthy rich. But I love, love, love those shows. Well, some of them, not all. Not sure what else I'd go on..

Tuesday, June 28, 2011

Another blog inspired by a friend..

My friend is doing a post a day picture for every day of the year. Totally awesome. I don't have nearly that much dedication! Today she had an update along with the picture, and it had me thinking. They moved into their new place, and she blogged about finally being settled in.. Then it hit me, something I've been thinking about quite a lot recently. I haven't felt settled in at home anywhere since our very first place together in 2005. =o/

We lived in Texas for about 3 months, never totally unpacked. It did help that we had a storage unit though, but really, who could feel at home for just 3 months?! Then we moved to Utah, Jan 07 to Oct 07. Our bedroom was still the hub for boxes. Cali, Oct 07-08, kind of felt at home there, but stuff was still mostly in boxes. Guess what, almost 5 years later from that first move and we are STILL living out of boxes it seems!

As I've mentioned in a previous post, I'm sure I have, I'm a hoarder. Not NEARLY as bad as the people on tv and it didn't totally start until after my dad died and we accumulated a good chunk of his stuff. I have barely touched any of it. I haven't been able to "move on" and do anything with any of it. I think I'm finally ready. I threw out some stuff yesterday that has just been sitting in a box for a while and is completely useless. It felt GREAT!

I broke down yesterday while talking with the husband. I was telling him some grand plans I have for the next few days in order to rearrange some stuff and hopefully get our youngest into the 3rd bedroom, eventually. I told him I know we'll be here in this apartment for about another year and I'm just tired of looking at all the crap. Then I cried, and told him I think I'm finally ready to go through some of my dad's stuff. I told him how when I was home, I actually picked up my father's urn. Something I've never been able to do in the 5 years he's been deceased. Grief hurts, moving on hurts, but I'll tell you what, it feels so much better. It's almost like being a child again, and having a band aid ripped off by your father in one fell swoop ;o). The grief hurts the longest, but moving on is like the band aid... It may hurt for a moment, but in the end, you feel much better. You may still have a scar to remember it by, but it no longer hurts.

Friday, June 17, 2011

Finally Friday! 5QF

1. What is your favorite summer time activity?
- As a kid it used to be softball. Any more, I love taking the kids for a picnic in the park or a 4 hour long trip to Hogle Zoo. I pretty much love doing anything that can turn into a great opportunity to bust out my camera and take some pictures of my lovely little ladies.
2. Do you have one laundry soap you stick to, or do you buy whatever's on sale?
- I love the white container of All. I get it in the powder form, then I get the Tide for cold water. Although when we were pretty poor in May, I bought whatever the Great Value stuff was at Wal Mart that smelled decent lol.
3. What is your favorite dinner to make in the summer?
- Salad! Believe it or not, my kiddos actually eat it! The only thing they don't really like is celery, but can you blame them?! A salad is easy, mostly cheap, and virtually no calories.
4. Do you have any talents?
- I feel like I have less than I did growing up. I know it's not true, because unless something truly crippling happens, one still has those same talents. I'm sure I could still play softball, I just don't think I would be as awesome as I was in high school. My newest talent has been crocheting. I love it! It's relaxing and pretty low effort. I can actually sit and crochet all day if I was able! I'm pretty good with a shotgun. I love shooting trap and skeet. I probably have more talents than I'd like to give myself credit for.
5. If you could instantly be an expert in something, what would it be? Why?
- Organizing! I'm so not with it when it comes to organization. I'm the epitome of disorganized, functional chaos. And unfortunately I think it's a genetic trait..

Monday, June 13, 2011

Post Secret got me thinking...

No really, it did.. I was reading yesterday's Post Secret like I usually do every Sunday. This Sunday was about Father's Day. And there was one in particular that stood out to me. It was a headstone, and the person wrote "I don't remember his voice" on it. There are somedays when I honestly wonder if I still remember his voice, my father that is... I can think about it and it takes me a minute. Is there going to come a day when I just don't remember it at all?? This is what I'm afraid of.. I'm afraid of forgetting his voice. I'm afraid of forgetting certain memories.
Shortly after he died, I would call the house phone for as long as I could before it was shut off. I would call just to let the answering machine pick up so I could hear his voice. Sometimes once was enough, other times I'd call back and listen to it a few more times.

Monday, June 6, 2011

I usually write my titles at the end...

Nothing too new here. We went camping last Thursday/Friday, it was a blast! Well, considering we froze our butts off Thursday night and Erin was still a little under the weather. My body is finally starting to feel like it's back to normal. Two days out and about in nature pretty much did me in lol. We all turned a nice shade of red too.. poor Erin's nose has turned to scabs from blisters popping.

Husband went to MEPS on Thursday and passed, finally, thank God! Now we just have to wait for his eye waiver to go through, then he will finally get the uniform.. As long as his contract is written the way he wants it.

Okay, I kinda feel like I'm having a "Julie & Julia" moment here. I want to write, "Hello, is there anyone out there? Anyone at all?" Granted, I know I don't write my blogs for the purpose of people to write them. Sometimes it's just a journal, sometimes an outlet for rants or whatever other crazy nonsense is going through my head. Anyway.

Oh! I guess I did have some other news. I started working on family genealogy again yesterday. I entered in most all the direct relatives I knew of on my dad's side and have some of his grandparents in it well. I'm working pretty hard on my mom's side because I can call her up and tell her about all the fantastic stuff I find. Right now I'm into the Pioneer era of her family and I've found 1 or 2 interesting facts about some of my pioneer ancestors, one in particular is about my great-great-great grandmother. One of her younger brothers was kidnapped by Indians on the Oregon Trail, then later found alive. Way cool! Anyway.. I should really get off this computer. It's been for most of the last day and half..

Friday, May 27, 2011

It's still Friday for 18 more minutes! 5QF

1. Do you apologize to your kids?
- Yes! I say sorry to chairs if I bump into them even. Of course I apologize to my kids!

2. What color are your nails right now?
-Well, mostly nude with some chipped pink paint. But the pink paint turns purplish in the sun. Gotta love Del Sol!

3. When you were growing up, how difficult was it for you to stay home from school sick? (As in, did you have to vomit or just say "I don't feel good")?
-I definitely HAD to be sick. My mom was a nurse, so I always had to have a legitimate reason to be sick. She'd usually check to see if I had a fever. I rarely ever threw up, but almost always if I was sick, I was either watched like a hawk or sent to the doctor.

4. When is the last time you bought a new comforter for your bed?
- Shoot, 2007/2008, if not longer. When we finally have some money again, I would like to buy a whole new set for the bed. We only have 1 pair of what I would call, good sheets. And I want to buy some of the same quality, just a different color.

5. Favorite website(s)?
- Facebook, blogger, youtube.. the usuals. I don't really do a whole lot of browsing. Postsecret and cafemom are a few others.

Monday, May 23, 2011

Re-cap from the last week

I have been super flippin' busy since Thursday! We're home, back in Utah now and I thought I'd update!

Thursday night, I took the girls to the Redding Rodeo. Surprisingly, I've never been. So, it was totally new for me too, and SO much fun!! They got to see horses, cows, and even a couple of buffalo! Shannon pretended she was a bull, snorting and growling. Erin pretended the seats in the grandstands were horses, straddling them as she said "neigh, neigh." Such great memories from that night, my girls were PERFECT!

Friday, mom, the girls, and I got to go on an outdoor walk (outside the facility) with GG. It was nice! Mom got to see grandma up and around, totally independently mobile, for the most part.

Saturday was pretty much one of the best days I've had in a long time! We went to the little town where I grew up for the Whitmore Mountain Fair. It's a tiny mountain town about 45 minutes east of Redding, CA. Just a few hundred people live in it's general vicinity. It has a post office, general store, community center, and a school, with a library. The school is so small, it only has 2 teachers. Anyway, we went up in the morning for the parade before the fair started. Around the time we were getting ready to leave, some of my cousins showed up. I hadn't seen them in 5 years or more. We had such a nice time visiting. I can't wait to see them again next month. I posted the pictures from that day on Facebook.

Friday, May 20, 2011


1. Do you and your spouse go to bed at the same time?
- Once upon a time, we used to. Then, he started working nights and it stopped. He went back to days, but we had an infant, so I was up late with the late night feedings. Then came a deployment, and we had to adjust to sleeping in the same bed, or even living under the same roof again. I miss going to bed with my husband. I'm hoping when we are home in 2 days, he puts down the video game controller and goes to bed with me. =o)

2. A question for the ladies.... What kind of facial hair do you like on your man?
- LOL! None!!! He tried to grow a mustache, it was horrible. He looked like a total creeper. He's almost 26 and still can't grow a full beard. It grows in all patchy. He's just NOT a hairy guy. I like that...

3. What's the worst vacation you've ever taken?
- None. Well, maybe one. Our vacation to Nebraska in 2007 ended pretty poorly. There was entirely too much drama and ended a few good friendships. Some that weren't severed completely were pretty badly damaged.

4. What's the first-ever blog you followed?
- I had my visiting teachers over one day, and either before or after the lesson, we started talking about blogs. I'd never even heard of a blog or blogging or anything like that. So the first blog I ever followed was my friend Melissa Cardon's.

5. Do you enjoy amusement parks?
- Enjoy is an understatement. I love, love, love amusement parks. I get such a rush from roller coasters. The speed, going upside down, all of it. I'm an amusement park junky.

Monday, May 16, 2011

Oh, my, word....

So... Erin is 2. My baby is 2! Holy cow! In 8 days, my big baby will be 5! Great grandma gets to come home on Shannon's birthday, too. Good reasons to celebrate.

Today GG, great grandma, asked Shannon to draw 2 things she wants for her birthday and present them to her. She just had so much fun drawing things, I saw she drew a picture of Spongebob and a Jack-o-Lantern. Not too sure what other things she has drawn but she's quite excited about her birthday. She has even drawn me pictures of the kind of cake she wants to eat! No way am I going to be able to make a cake that resembles a cat playing in grass.. It was a picture of a green, rectangular cake with a cat on top lol. Then she drew a picture of her with a "sackboy" (main character from the game Little Big Planet) shirt, and she wanted me to make that into a cake. Man, if only I had half the imagination she does! Then, grandma gave me the task of picking out the perfect outfit for Shannon's first day of Kindergarten. The main thing, she wants Shannon to have a nice pair of boots for that day. I've checked Old Navy, Gap, Carters, Osh Kosh, and still can't find a pair of kids boots!

Friday, May 13, 2011


1. Tube socks, calf socks, crew, ankle, none?
- None!!! Flip flops year round! Or at least sandals, or some sort of strappy shoe. I hate socks, I feel like they suffocate my feet. But if I do wear socks, I wear crew.

2. Was your children's name a mutual decision or was it a debate?
- Definitely a mutual decision. No debate at all. Shannon was chosen because that was the name his father wanted to name his sister. And it's a good Irish name. Her middle name was difficult, but we decided on Kate the moment she was delivered. The L&D nurse kept calling me Kate, so that's how hers was decided. Erin, another good Irish name, was decided the week after Shannon was born lol. We decided if we were going to have a girl as a 2nd child, it would be Erin. Her middle name is Elizabeth, a family name of mine.

3. What is your favorite type of weather?
- Sunny, high 70s, very slight breeze. Capri and tank top weather basically.

4. If left to your own devices, what type would you wake up everyday?
- Oh geez, if I had no children.. it would probably be 10 a.m. everyday. I'd basically sleep until I couldn't stand staying in bed.

5. Have you bought your cemetery plots yet?
- Lord no! I haven't even thought that far ahead yet! There are two different veteran's cemeteries I like. One is in Half Moon Bay, CA (it's also where my mother's father is buried, plus it has an empty plot next to it). And there is another here locally in Igo, CA. I have no idea though. Not something I'm thinking about any time soon.

Tuesday, May 10, 2011

Random thought time..

Twitter, I don't understand the purpose of Twitter. I don't like it. I have one.. It just annoys me. Granted, I sometimes use it as an extra way to vent when I don't feel like putting it out on facebook. Which leads me to my next rant...

If you have a problem with someone, don't "call em out" on facebook, pick up the phone and tell them in person. Especially when it's a problem that doesn't necessarily need to be announced to the whole damn world. Husband, friend, family bashing all on facebook. In some ways Myspace/Facebook is ruining basic forms of socialization. But, I understand how some people can't just face someone and tell them how they really feel, at least social networks may be a way for them to actual get it out. So, I guess I do get it, but I still like the plain, old way of telling someone how you feel in person or over the phone.

I have a friend who just signed up for last night. And I just don't get it. Just like social networks, I kind of feel it may ruin modern dating. Modern dating is just weird anyway. I remember how I used to make myself sick for a week waiting to call a guy. I'd meet a guy, he'd give me his home number, because not everyone permanently had a cell phone attached to them at this time.. I'd eventually call the guy and sometimes talk on the phone for hours! Now, it's texting. And to me texting just seems way to impersonal. It used to be calling or sending each other notes between class or whatever. I'm just glad to say, I'm happy I don't have to worry about dating in this modern, technological day and age. Geez, makes me sound like an old fart.. No, I've only been with my husband for 6 years (today as a matter of fact). But during those 6 years, courting, wooing, dating has seemed to change drastically.

Monday, May 9, 2011

Crappy situation

I have no idea where to even start. I haven't been writing much.

The girls and I are currently in California. We've been here about 2 weeks now. The day before we came out, my 87 year old grandma had an "exploratory" surgery. They were pretty sure she passed a blood clot that caused Ischemic Bowel. Which basically means part of her bowel died. So they did a collectomy to remove the dead part of the bowel and connect the two good pieces together. She went into surgery with a 10% chance to live, came out of surgery with a 50% chance. So after a rollercoaster stay in the hospital for about a week, she was moved to a rehabilitation hospital. She was moved there a week ago tomorrow. I'm very pleased to announce she's well on her way to recovery. Grandma still has a ways to go in her recovery, but we're very positive about it.

Sunday, April 17, 2011

Month and a half.. where has the time gone?!

It has seriously flown by... Since the 4th of March, I celebrated my 24th birthday. Wasn't too exciting to be totally honest. I've realized not every birthday can be like your 21st! Especially when kids are in the picture. Saw Bon Jovi in concert. That was quite the experience! We went on a family vacation to Disneyland! I took sooo many pictures. We spent 2 full days in Disneyland and rode all but 1 or 2 rides. It was amazing! Then we spent our 3rd day at California Adventure. It had the best rafting ride and rollercoaster I've ever been on. On the ride to Disneyland, we stayed a night in Vegas at the Monte Carlo. Husband had never been, and it's probably good we went with the kids first, because I could totally see him go hog wild in that place! So, we've been back 2 weeks now and nothing too exciting has happened, which I don't mind one bit! I'm sure May will be the busiest month yet. Shannon has at least one softball game every week that month. Erin will be 2 and Shannon will be 5. We're having a joint birthday for them since we aren't sure if daddy will be in town still during Shannon's birthday. In exactly 2 weeks, husband will no longer be an Airman. 6 years and 11 months with the Air Force. So crazy! We're gonna be Army.. whole new set of ranks, uniforms, acronyms. Gotta admit, I can't wait to see him in Class A's. To be totally honest though, I'm so beyond sick of some of the negativity of people. We have told a few people, close friends and family and some of the reactions have totally shocked me. "Is he dumb?!" umm.. "You know Air Force life is way better than Army life?!" No.. my husband is not dumb. And I know Army life is more rough, but hey.. this is what he wants so I'm right there next to him in this decision.

Friday, March 4, 2011

Day 2

Day 2: 5 things on your bucket list.

1. Travel to Germany, France (again), England, Ireland, Norway - any country where we can trace our heritage back to, I want to visit!

2. Go to at least one super bowl and Daytona 500.

3. Write a book and have it published.

4. Learn to play an instrument, even if it's a didgery doo, or however you spell it.

5. Go on a hunting escapade with Ted Nugent.

Thursday, March 3, 2011

Challenge: Day 1

Day 1: Recent picture of you (see below, I am the one on the right, in case you didn't know) and 15 interesting facts about yourself.

1. I have recently found a new hobby, crocheting. It's something I can actual hyperfocus on and I love finding new patterns I can teach myself to make.
2. I love motorsports, one of the biggest rushes in life was sitting in a bomber (type of class) during a race once.
3. I know how to operate some heavy machinery. In Kindergarten or First grade, I competed in a "backhoe derby" and took third place. I spent many summer days sitting next to my daddy on a Cat.
4. I love horseback riding, but I haven't ridden since I was 13.
5. I love guns and hunting, or really anything outdoors. One of my favorite things to do is trap/skeet shooting.
6. For the last 4 years, I have wasted many hours playing World of Warcraft, I am officially a geek.
7. I love Action movies. Comedic actions especially. I do appreciate a good Western once in a while, since I was mostly raised on those and sports while at my dad's house.
8. I served 2 years, well just under, in the U.S. Air Force. I still kind of miss it everyday =o/
9. I was married at 18 and had my oldest when I was 19, second at 22. In 2005, I met my husband while we were in Technical School in Monterey, CA.
10. Every year my mom, grandma, and I used to go to the Oregon Shakespeare Festival in Ashland, Oregon. I fell in love with Oregon at a very young age.
11. When I was 12, mom, grandma, and I spent 3 weeks touring southern France. It was definitely an experience I'll never forget.
12. I have played SO many sports. Softball was the sport I played the longest. I have played soccer, basketball, volleyball, track, cheerleading (for a month), and even wrestling.
13. My mom is my best friend. I tell her everything. Probably even some things I shouldn't, but she does the same to me as well.
14. Growing up, I couldn't wait to once leave Shasta County and move away somewhere totally awesome (part of the reason I joined the military). Now I find myself constantly thinking about how great it would be to move back..
15. I am me. I am awesome, I know this. I am unique, and I don't think anyone could ever change my opinion about myself..

Wednesday, March 2, 2011

31 day challenge.. starting tomorrow, stay tuned!

After seeing a friend's blog today, I feel compelled to do one myself! It's called the "31 day challenge" and it's most definitely a good reason to log onto blogger everyday. So.. Thanks Melissa! =o)

Day 1: Recent picture of you and 15 interesting facts about yourself.
Day 2: Five things on your bucket list.
Day 3: A picture of you and your friends.
Day 4: A habit that you wish you didn't have.
Day 5: A picture of somewhere you've been.
Day 6: 5 favorite tv shows.
Day 7: A picture of someone/something that has the biggest impact on you.
Day 8: Short term goals for this month and why.
Day 9: Something you're proud of in the past few days.
Day 10: Songs you listen to when you are happy, sad, bored, anxious, or mad.
Day 11: Another picture of you and your friends.
Day 12: How you found out about blogger and why you have one?
Day 13: A letter to someone.
Day 14: A picture of you and your family.
Day 15: Put your ipod on shuffle: first 10 songs that play
Day 16: Another picture of yourself.
Day 17: Someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why.
Day 18: Plans/dreams/goals you have.
Day 19: Nicknames you have and why you have them.
Day 20: Someone you love.
Day 21: A picture of something that makes you happy.
Day 22: What makes you different from everyone else?
Day 23: Something you crave for a lot.
Day 24: Your last 5 facebook status.
Day 25: What I would find in your bag?
Day 26: What do you think about your friends?
Day 27: Why are you doing this 30 day challenge?
Day 28: A picture of you from last year and now, how have you changed since then?
Day 29: In this past month, what have you learned?
Day 30: Your favorite song
Day 31: The best thing about being you.

It's finally March!

Today is my rest day, Turbofire day 2 was yesterday and I would like to think it was easier than the first. My legs are killing me and my back is quite tense. A massage SO would not hurt right now.
Well, I received a call last night at like 9:30.. I didn't recognize the number, but I answered it anyway, and I'm glad I answered it instead of getting a voicemail. It looks like I will be the assistant coach for Shannon's little league team this year! I'm totally stoked! I felt like a complete goof on the phone since I was like a giddy little kid, oh well lol.
Have I said how excited I am since it's finally March?! So much is going on this month! Anyway, gotta run, can't sit still any longer...

Tuesday, March 1, 2011

Dear Turbofire...

I'm sorry I didn't take you seriously at first. I probably cannot live without you. When we were finished yesterday, after I turned you off and put you away, the chunks started to rise. I remained in the fetal position on the couch for the next hour, positive I was going to throw up. My knees scream if they go any higher than my hips, my arms feel like they will fall off if they go above my shoulders. I know you abuse me and love me at the same time, so I must continue this new relationship. When I think of you, the John Mellencamp song "Hurt So Good" comes to mind.
Love always, Me.

Yes, I did Turbofire yesterday and didn't go over my calorie limit, hooray. I felt like I was coming down with a cold yesterday, today I feel much better, so I will more than likely workout for day #2. Tomorrow's a rest day according to the schedule. The pain/burn is so going to be worth it. I have a vacation in 24 days and a wedding to attend by the end of May. I'd LOVE to be in a size 5/6 dress, but I refuse to shop until it's April and I'm a size 8.
Thanks to the pill (was on a low-dosage something, but went on regular ortho-tricyclen in December) and not so healthy habits, I've gone from low 140s to mid 150s. So, I've got my work cut out for me!
Also, on a sappy "awww" note, we were getting ready for bed and as he gave me a kiss goodnight the hubster said something he's never said to me before. He told me I was beautiful and that he couldn't function without me. Talk about permasmile! I've been in a great mood ever since! I'm so happy with where we are at the moment and how happy he is with his recent decisions. Anyway, just had to share, I don't like to be the type of woman to trash talk their husband in a blog, point out his negative qualities, or anything like that. It's taken a while, but I've found it best to just go straight to him if I have any issues with him. So, with that being said, ending this post with - I love my husband. =o)

Friday, February 25, 2011

Yet another 5QF

1. Can you drive a stick shift?
- From what I can remember, yes. I learned to drive one when I was like 12. It's not that hard to pick up, just difficult to manuever in the city.

2. What are two foods you just can't eat?
- Mushrooms and fish. I can't stand the texture of mushrooms at all, they've grossed me out since I was a little kid. And fish smells, looks, and tastes nasty to me. I almost gag whenever I try it lol.

3. Do you buy Girl Scout Cookies? What is your favorite kind?
- I love thin mints, I think everyone else does too... And Samoas, mmm coconut.

4. How do you pamper yourself?
- I'm really not one for pampering. I get my nails done from time to time and my hair highlighted/colored. Besides that, I really don't do much. I've never been to a spa or anything. Maybe today's the day I should start though. ;o)

5. What is your nickname and how did you get it?
- My nickname is "Scooter." When I was a toddler, I had one of those walker things. And my parents say I used to haul ass all over in that thing. So from that, they started calling me Scooter. I used to be so embarrassed when they used to shout it out loud at my games in high school and stuff. But what else are parents for? Embarrassment is at the top of their list! Or so it seems haha...

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Thursday, February 24, 2011

No title, just thoughts

Have I mentioned that I'm totally excited for the Mister? Well, I am. He's really starting to get excited about signing with the Army. Of course, since he has XY chromosomes, he won't come right out and say "hey babe, I'm excited!" But it's so easy to tell... His general manner and mood has changed already. He found out yesterday they should be able to send him to Basic shortly after he signs. So, he'll probably be going in May.
I'm actually really looking forward to him going as well. Partially, because he will be out of the house for a while, and I can then cook whatever I want to eat. =o) But, I'm kind of a sap for the handwritten letters from time to time. It'll be much easier to write to him there, unlike deployments where it takes 3 weeks for mail to arrive. Also, I'm really hoping we'll be able to see him graduate.
Lots to come in the upcoming months, I'm so ready.

Tuesday, February 22, 2011

I am amazing

Yes, I'm definitely tooting my own horn here. Did you know military members and their families can get discounted tickets to Disneyland.. $99 for a 3 day park hopper. So, that's $300 right there.. way better than around $500.
For the past 3 days, I have been doing constant research on hotels. Tonight, I found the winner, a Holiday Inn less than a mile from the park. The room we reserved is AWESOME! It's a queen bed and kids suite, meaning along with the queen, it has 2 bunk beds. I'm totally stoked. The price is unbelievable too, $114/night. So, is it March 28th yet?!?
The day we get done with Disneyland, we're driving down to San Diego to see some good friends and go to SeaWorld. Tickets for SeaWorld are free for military members (4 tickets total).
I just can't believe this is all really going to happen! It will be our best family vacation yet.

I can do this!

I don't remember the last time I had chocolate.. Like a real chocolate bar. I don't think the dessert tasting at the reception center counted at all. Oh yeah, I joined my mother-in-law and sister-in-law today for an open house at a local reception center. Anyway, I know it's been a few days anyway since I've had chocolate. It is driving me a little nuts, but I think I'll survive. I'm confident in saying yesterday was the last time I had a soda too. I'm trying to give up both completely for now, I'm sure moderation will be fine someday down the road.
Next week for sure, this week maybe.. I will start the workout program TurboFire. I'm really looking forward to it. It's High Intensity Interval Training (HIIT), lots of cardio. I like cardio, I just hate, loathe, can't stand running.
Well, it's off to bed for myself and the husband. TTFN...

Sunday, February 20, 2011

Not much of one, but it is an update

Well... we've decided.. to heck with moving into a rental house. I looked almost all day yesterday and couldn't find anything in our budget that takes a cat, house-wise. There were plenty of Townhouses, but we just decided to stay here in the apartment.
So, since we will be looking into a small auto loan and buying the husband an older Jeep Cherokee (it's what he wants, I won't argue), we will still have some money in the bank. Quite a bit actually. So, the family will be going to Disneyland! I have been doing some research and it looks like we can go for 4 days between the parks and hotel and spend, at most $1300 for hotel and tickets. Not quite sure how much gas will be, but I can figure that out later.
Once we get the second car, I can start bugging the husband about the CNA certification class again. =o) It's only 4-6 weeks of class.
Also, I took the girls to the dinosaur museum at Thanksgiving Point yesterday. I realized we haven't been since March 2009, so yesterday was the first time for our youngest. The girls loved it! Shannon was amazed as usual, and did very well whenever it was time to move on from one thing to another. Erin was almost speechless the whole time. She was just taking it all in and enjoyed every second of it. My camera battery died about halfway through the excursion, so I'll have to get back there again soon and take some more pictures.

Friday, February 18, 2011

Good almost always comes with the bad

Well, this first bank has declined us for a home loan. And you know, I'm not too upset about it either. There are very few things we actually have to fix in order to be accepted in the future. So, we've decided to finally purchase a second vehicle and we will for sure be moving out of our apartment by the first of May.
Tonight I am going to start looking at rentals again and we will see about a car as early as this weekend. I'm not disappointed at all because there are still plenty of exciting things in store for us this year.


1. Have you worn the same outfit more than one day in a row?
- Yes, unfortunately, I have actually worn one outfit later in the night, slept in most of it, then woke up and wore it that morning too.. That's bad.

2. If you had to choose any LARGE city to live in, which would it be?
- Portland or Sacramento. Yes, both are close to home. Portland is the first option.

3. Fly or drive with the kids on vacation?
- Drive!!! Never again will I fly with both kids by myself. Unless it's an emergency. My favorite mode of transportation for a vacation is definitely driving though.

4. What is your idea of "spring cleaning?"
- I'm OCD about cleaning when I actually care. So, spring cleaning for me would be going through toys and clothes and getting rid of stuff. Deep cleaning, rearranging shelves and cabinets. Bleaching anything that can be bleached.

5. What is the best book you have ever read?
- East of Eden by John Steinbeck and Abraham Lincoln: Vampire Hunter by Seth Grahame Smith

Thursday, February 17, 2011

Well on our way!

Less than a half hour ago, I submitted our paperwork to the mortgage banker for a VA Loan preapproval! I have already found a house I fell in love with, but I'm trying not to get attached because A) we haven't looked at it in person yet, B) I want to wait to hear back about the loan.
I almost feel like a giddy little kid.

Tuesday, February 15, 2011

I just want to understand!

I'm tired of this. I could be completely fine for days to months.. Then I'll dream about him, my dad. What sucks, they are rarely ever the pleasant memory type dreams. They're definitely dreams that reenact the day he died. The dream I had this morning started off with myself and a few others up at the house I grew up in/he lived in. We were all waiting for him to get home from wherever it was he went. We were all preoccupied inside the house and heard his truck pull up, but didn't see him pull in at all. So, I walked out and didn't see him anywhere. I walked all around the truck, then walked over by the other side of the house. And that's when I found him, semi-propped up against a tree. I just went blank, cold, white.. My uncle ran over to him and checked his pulse and what not and told me he was dead. Then I woke up.. Every time, this is what it's like!
Sorry if this is strange or odd for any of you to read. I just felt like I needed to get it off my chest. Rarely ever do I talk about the dreams, and if I do it's usually just to my mom or someone else and it's rare that I even talk about them at all. They always start off with a few days or the day before he dies. And it's almost always my uncle that is the one who tells me he's dead. Not sure if it's like that because that's how it really happened on the day he died or what.. My uncle is the one who was in the room with him at the time of his death, and he was the one who called me when it happened.
All I know is that I'm TIRED of these dreams! It's been almost 5 years now since they started. I'm tired of feeling crazy...

Monday, February 14, 2011

Blue is nice, but green has always been my favorite color..

The title really is true, green is my all time favorite color. But, what the title really means is we will soon make the transition from being an Air Force family to an Army family. Husband extended his enlistment last year through April of this year. So May 1st, he will be signing with the Army guard. I'm not making any big announcement over facebook or anything. A few people already know, family and our really really close friends.
I am truly happy in this decision and know it will be good for all of us. Some of you may be wondering about deployments and such.. the unit was set to deploy in 3-4 years, and now it's looking like 4-5 years. But we aren't really worried about it until the time comes. By then at least one of the girls will be in school and that will make it much easier! I'm not very experienced in the deployment section, but the one we've been through.. it was rough having him gone with both girls at home.
In other news, it's almost been a week since I've arrived back in Utah. The first few days were bad, I was missing California something fierce, but I just kept myself distracted and I seem to do alright. Anyway! Gotta run, more updates to come later =o) And happy Valentine's Day guys!

Saturday, January 15, 2011

Just thought I'd share..

I was going through my pictures to try and find a new picture for the top of my blog. The picture I chose for the blog is probably my favorite flower/nature picture. But then I found others, I guess I would call them the top 5 of some pictures I have taken.

I don't know why, but this is absolutely one of my all-time favorite photos I have taken. I took 3 pictures of this owl. In the first one, I couldn't see the mouse at all. In the second one, you can see it under it's foot. And there's this one, which is pretty self explanatory. I didn't even realize it had a mouse in its mouth until I got home and uploaded my pictures from the day.

From her 4th birthday party. I love the look on her face. Happiest kid in the world right there.

Aside from taking pictures of people, I love taking nature pictures. Nature doesn't move around much, and it's always photogenic.

My favorite picture of him. His ears were always up and his eyes were so light in this picture.

This is one of my favorite pictures of Mac, my mom's border collie.

Tuesday, January 11, 2011

2011 and Finding my Optimism

2010, you were interesting. Actually, you were kind of boring, sorry. Some parts were fun, but mostly dull.
2011, you definitely started off with a bang! Not the best kind either. But I'm willing to look past it and not hold a grudge against you.
In 8 days, I will be surrounded by some of the people I love the most for 3 weeks, awesome right? In 2 months, I will be going on my very first solo vacation for my birthday, totally awesome! This year, my babies will be turning 5 and 2. Shannon starts Kindergarten in the fall! Husband will be reenlisting this year and is also up for E-6 at the end of the summer. So life gets tough sometimes, I just needed to find my big girl panties and suck it up!
I attempted the whole school thing fall semester of 2010 so I could get a degree and become a Physical Therapy Assistant. I couldn't find those same panties in time, let life get the best of me, and got way behind in my classes. I'm not going to lie either, Biology was almost traumatizing for me lol. You know what though, it was an eye-opening experience. I realized becoming a PTA probably isn't the best career choice for me, or much of anything else in the medical field.
One night I got to thinking about my passions in life, and what gets me excited. In a previous post, I wrote that my DREAM job would allow me to travel anywhere around the world, take amazing photographs, and write about the places and my experiences. So, why can't I do that? Someday I will see different places I have never been, I will never give up on that. I can write now, and more, maybe someday have that published book. Lastly, photography is a hobby of mine, I love it. I have a great camera which can help me learn how to use a SLR camera someday. I also looked into degrees and certificates at the local community college again and found they offer an Associate of Arts in Photography. I still have some thinking to do and decisions to make with the husband, but I am actually excited about this. Before, I wanted to go to school for a job I knew I could do anywhere in the US, no problem. But, I didn't think I would actually be happy with that career choice. Photography on the other hand, could remain a hobby and be a career. Anyway! Husband is hungry, so I should go remedy that. Until next time...